The last 2 weeks have gone by so soon. Aahlad is now 2 months old. I have started to take complete care of Aahlad all by myself. I bath him in the morning and give him a sponge bath in the evening. The maid seems to think that I dnt want her to hold my son or so.. :D Its just that when I am there why should I ask her to look after my son. After all he is mine right! DO I sound possessive? I hope I dont turn out to be a over protective mother.

I will be going to Trivandrum next month end and will be staying there for a month. I am a bit worried about it. I have never stayed there for so long.. and to stay away from Renjith for so long will be tough!

Aahlad is getting cuter and cuter.. I cant take my eyes off him actually. He recognizes me very well now. He feels most comfortable in my arms. (I would like to think so).

Want to take him to Babu mama's house this weekend. I hope mom wouldn't mind. Banu ammai has been kinda nice to me when I was carrying him. She sent sweets and other things that I like. This is the least I can do to show my gratitude.. towards babu mama.

Aahlad's Temple visit!

Yesterday Aahlad completed 56 days.. and we all headed to temple first. Ayyapan temple is the closest to our house and I like that temple too. Yesterday also happened to be the day Renjith proposed to me 3 years back.. :)

We hadn't had our breakfast and it was almost 12 PM by the time we got out of the temple. We had our breakfast at the nearby "namana upahar".. Champp was hungry too so I had to feed him in the car itself.. and had my breakfast in the car too.

From there we first went to Raju mama's house. All of them, Raju mama, geeta ammai, Rakhee anna and Chinnu were all at home.. and they were all so excited and surprised to see Aahlad. Geeta ammai took our arathy before we entered the house. Champ was deep in sleep and dint mind all the noise and cuddling. We had our lunch there itself.
Then we went to Mahaveer marvel apartment. We first went to Narianna's place, as they were all going out for lunch with Chinnu (as she is leaving to US the coming friday). Shivmama, Raghuanna, Bhabi and Drithi were also there, so it was good to see all of them.

Then we went to Madan mama's house. Madan mama was angry with us since his naming ceremony day for some reason.. and we were hoping that he would be fine once we visit him.. and yea.. he was the one to open the door and he soon held Aahlad in his arms. He was happy to see us and so was I.

Although I can now go out I dont think I will.. I don't miss shopping or freaking out now. I'm happy to stay at home with my son all day along. :)

Pain and Gain

Suffering from breast milk clogging. :( Its so painful! Just praying that it heals soon and doesn't get infected or turn into absyss. Missing Renjith too.. he is on his way to Trivandrum.. Its been a painful day so far. My cutie has been the only diversion from this pain.. moreover all the pain and tears payed off when Aahlad smiled at me for the first time.. :) He now recognizes me and he actually looked at me and gave a beautiful toothless smile.

It wasn't a bad day after all! :)

I wanted to note down every little thing Aahlad does... everyday... but haven’t been able to. I hope I can regularly blog from now. I want to capture every small moment, be it good or bad in here.

Aahlad is now 48 days old... Time sure flies... He hasn’t started to recognize faces yet. I am waiting for the day when he will smile at me :) ... Now he smiles only when his stomach is full or in his sleep.

Two days back we had been to the hospital for check up and his vaccination (Hepatitis A). He now weighs 5.4 Kgs :)… His birth weight was 3.5 Kgs.. His pediatrician Dr.Nalini Shenoy finds him cute and loves his eyes, she gives him a peck on his cheek every time we visit her. When I complained to her about him stretching a lot, she commented saying “Who asked him to drink so much milk? He is supposed to have gained around 600 to 700 grams and now he has gained almost 1200 more. Let him stretch!”

He doesn't look so chubby or heavy as he is pretty tall.The cutest thing about Aahlad is his eyes. He is so curious and always likes to stare at the light. I find everything cute about him. The other day Renjith was telling me about how lucky he feels to have such a beautiful baby. Unlike me my son is pretty strong. He cries only when he is hungry or if something is hurting him.
Yesterday was a bad day, during his evening sponge bath his anklet got stuck in his leg and it hurt him a lot. He cried a lot, my poor baby.  It took me a while to realize why he is crying and immediately took the anklets off... I felt so helpless till then.

Everyday Geeta ammai and Raju mama come to visit him in the morning, some days she gives him a bath and oil massage too. Yesterday, ammai made Kajal for him. Although I don’t like to put Kajal in his eyes, I let her apply it in his eyes. Must say he looks cuter with the mashi.

Tomorrow morning his dad is driving up to Trivandrum. He will be returning only after 3 days. Daddy is already feeling bad about staying away from his son for so long.

I still have a month of maternity leave left. I have to extend it till Jan end. I hope there won’t be any problem with my manager or HR. I can’t think of leaving my baby at some child care center or with someone. I don’t know what I am going to do from Feb onwards. Hope Renjith gets a long term onsite assignment soon, so that I can take a break from work and go onsite with him and the baby.

It's a BOY!!!

I am back again after a long gap.. for obvious reasons. We are blessed with a beautiful baby boy. He was born on 14th August at 1.17AM. He is more than a month old now I really wish we dint wait for 2 years after our marriage to have a baby. I am loving the motherhood phase. Renjith is so overwhelmed and happy too. We have named him Aahlad.

Hope this is not my last blog before delivery!

I’ve completed 36 weeks of pregnancy… which means that it could be any day now! I am not sure how I should feel about it.. It is little strange because although I am horrified about the thought of having a normal delivery I am also eagerly waiting to hold my baby. Wondering most of the time if it is a boy or a girl.. I hope the baby has Renjith’s features (He has a better nose than I). I keep imagining and playing scenes in my mind of how the new born would yawn, sleep, cry.. Smile in its sleep.. I can imagine how thrilled Renjith would be to hold his baby.. And how proud the grandparents would be.. I can picture all their faces and all these wonderful moments.. I wish someone would capture all these moments though.

My doctor seems to think that I can have the baby before 18th August, which is hardly 2 weeks from now. I also feel the same, coz I feel so breathless coz of my tummy now. I can hardly sleep.. Eat or walk.. Feel tired all the time.
I sometimes wish I could buy all the baby stuff ahead of the delivery.. Atleast I would have a choice in my baby’s clothes/needs.. Unfortunately in Hindu culture it is believed to be a bad omen to do so.
We still have not finalized on a name.. Have a few in mind.. Renjith was adamant about having “Unnithan” as the baby’s surname.. We have been having fights over this since long. :) Now, we have a pact, if it is a normal delivery then the baby will have its surname as “Nair” else it will be “Unnithan”. Weird pact was made so that I don’t have a painful normal delivery and also have my baby named as “Unnithan”. I also have a reason now to go for normal delivery. Hehehe

My dearest child, my little krishna..
You are the answer to all my prayers
I eagerly wait for you to play in my arms..

You are the star of my eye I will never make you cry..
I pray to god that you have a beautiful life to live
May you never feel lonely and cry.. come to me, my arms will always be open wide..

All my happiness and joy is associated with you,
I could love someone so much? I never had a clue..
I can feel you grow in my womb and a divine sense of joy fills me everytime you move.
Eagerly waiting for the day you arrive, you are the apple of my eye.

I dream of you, sing for you and live for you..
I will protect you from all the harm I can..
you have


May god always shower his love on you.
You will always be in my prayers my dear,
I am your mother and I will love you forever!