Happy Vishu!

Happy Vishu to all my friends!

For the past three days, celebration (read, eating plenty of yummy food) has been in full swing in honor of Vishu, the harvest festival.

This year Vishu has been very special for me.. I had my mid trimester scan on the same day and to know that my baby is doing perfectly fine is a big big relief. Unfortunately I couldn’t see the baby in the ultrasound monitor.. I had to lie down and could only see the expressions on my hubby’s and doctor’s face. Hubby couldn’t stop smiling the whole day.. he was so excited to see the baby move. The baby had his legs stretched with one foot rested on the other.. That’s how hubby dearest always sleeps too! 

Both our parents were excited too.. I first called my mom as soon as I finished the scan and told her how long it took the doctor to finish the scan as champ was constantly moving.

My expected delivery date has pre-poned now… yaayyyy!! Champ is growing fast and now my EDD is August 25th.

My nephew Om, who is just 4 years old is so inquisitive about my growing belly. Every time he meets me.. The first question he asks me is “when is the baby coming out?” He is very sure that it is a baby girl. :) What’s more cute is the delicate way in which he touches my tummy.. as if it’s a balloon.

Last week was so funny… he was listening to a song in my mobile.. He loves playing with my mobile :) and all of a sudden he came to me and kept the mobile on top of my belly. It was so cute…

I have been trying to make him understand him that the baby can be a boy or a girl.. we cant be sure that it is a girl only.. But he refuses to accept that it could be a boy. :) I know he would love the baby lots be it a girl or boy! But a small part of me too wishes that I have a baby girl.. for no special reasons.. I just adore the cute dresses, clips, baby bangles and everything.. Its so much fun to dress up a girl than a boy! Hubby wishes it’s a girl too.. so does my mom.

Its so much fun to hear what people say.. most of my family members think it’s a girl.. some of them are so sure that it is a girl. Like my aunt, cousins and of course Omi. Only my in-laws think its going to be a baby boy! I would be happy as long my baby is healthy and I have a painless delivery (which is too much to ask for I know)

I am special!

I have reached half way through my pregnancy .. completed 20 weeks and I have 20 weeks more to go! I can feel champ move / kick in my tummy.. its not like how I had imagined to be.. It feels so different.. Its like the tingling feeling you get when you hold a small fish in your palm. Unfortunately hubby cant feel it.. its not so strong as of now so only I can feel it. Well there has to be some advantage of being a mother.. I guess this is one of them. Hehehee..

Last night was amazing.. I was listening to some music in my mobile and I when kept the mobile close to my tummy I could feel champ move.. I dint want to keep the mobile too close for too long as I dint harm the baby with any sort of radiation or noise.

The past few weeks have been really dull. So many emotions.. body pains.. uneasiness… arguments at work.. fights with hubby.. It was too much to handle and I burst into tears. I sometimes feel I really need some professional help.. a shrink or something. I cried in the shower, in the nights.. and whenever I was alone. I know my husband loves me but I really could use some help and support from him. I just want to feel special and wanted.. I don’t need any expensive gifts or anything.. but I wish he had at least got me some flowers for my birthday. I always thought people make you feel special when you are pregnant but nothing of that sort seems to be happening with me.. Birthday this year really sucked! I guess I just need to stop expecting from him.. and be happy for the sake of my baby. I try and keep myself busy whenever im bored or alone by painting so I don’t let such horrible thoughts enter my head. I don’t like it when I am like this! I have my baby to keep me smiling.. Nothing else should matter I guess. I dint want to write about all this here but there is nothing really interesting happening. Oh there is something to look forward to..I have my mid trimester scan on 15th of this month. Eagerly waiting for it!

Well my birthday would have been horrible if not for my cousins and uncles.It was very sweet of them to get me a birthday cake and gifts. My cousin in pune mailed me the baby scrap book. Long back when I had gone shopping with her I had mentioned that when I have a baby I would have a baby scrap book where I can note all the special things about the baby… his first picture, his first smile, everything about the baby infact. It was really so nice of her to remember that and send me the book so early. Love you chinnu!

We finally booked a car… Ford figo. White colour. I Love the colour white and my in-laws and hubby don’t consider white as colour. Whatever it is my car so I had to have a choice in the colour at least. I just hope to get the car before 21st of this month. Its mom’s birthday and I really hope she could be there when we get the car home.

I think Ill buy some flowers for myself today!

Love you baby!