The last 2 weeks have gone by so soon. Aahlad is now 2 months old. I have started to take complete care of Aahlad all by myself. I bath him in the morning and give him a sponge bath in the evening. The maid seems to think that I dnt want her to hold my son or so.. :D Its just that when I am there why should I ask her to look after my son. After all he is mine right! DO I sound possessive? I hope I dont turn out to be a over protective mother.

I will be going to Trivandrum next month end and will be staying there for a month. I am a bit worried about it. I have never stayed there for so long.. and to stay away from Renjith for so long will be tough!

Aahlad is getting cuter and cuter.. I cant take my eyes off him actually. He recognizes me very well now. He feels most comfortable in my arms. (I would like to think so).

Want to take him to Babu mama's house this weekend. I hope mom wouldn't mind. Banu ammai has been kinda nice to me when I was carrying him. She sent sweets and other things that I like. This is the least I can do to show my gratitude.. towards babu mama.

Aahlad's Temple visit!

Yesterday Aahlad completed 56 days.. and we all headed to temple first. Ayyapan temple is the closest to our house and I like that temple too. Yesterday also happened to be the day Renjith proposed to me 3 years back.. :)

We hadn't had our breakfast and it was almost 12 PM by the time we got out of the temple. We had our breakfast at the nearby "namana upahar".. Champp was hungry too so I had to feed him in the car itself.. and had my breakfast in the car too.

From there we first went to Raju mama's house. All of them, Raju mama, geeta ammai, Rakhee anna and Chinnu were all at home.. and they were all so excited and surprised to see Aahlad. Geeta ammai took our arathy before we entered the house. Champ was deep in sleep and dint mind all the noise and cuddling. We had our lunch there itself.
Then we went to Mahaveer marvel apartment. We first went to Narianna's place, as they were all going out for lunch with Chinnu (as she is leaving to US the coming friday). Shivmama, Raghuanna, Bhabi and Drithi were also there, so it was good to see all of them.

Then we went to Madan mama's house. Madan mama was angry with us since his naming ceremony day for some reason.. and we were hoping that he would be fine once we visit him.. and yea.. he was the one to open the door and he soon held Aahlad in his arms. He was happy to see us and so was I.

Although I can now go out I dont think I will.. I don't miss shopping or freaking out now. I'm happy to stay at home with my son all day along. :)

Pain and Gain

Suffering from breast milk clogging. :( Its so painful! Just praying that it heals soon and doesn't get infected or turn into absyss. Missing Renjith too.. he is on his way to Trivandrum.. Its been a painful day so far. My cutie has been the only diversion from this pain.. moreover all the pain and tears payed off when Aahlad smiled at me for the first time.. :) He now recognizes me and he actually looked at me and gave a beautiful toothless smile.

It wasn't a bad day after all! :)

I wanted to note down every little thing Aahlad does... everyday... but haven’t been able to. I hope I can regularly blog from now. I want to capture every small moment, be it good or bad in here.

Aahlad is now 48 days old... Time sure flies... He hasn’t started to recognize faces yet. I am waiting for the day when he will smile at me :) ... Now he smiles only when his stomach is full or in his sleep.

Two days back we had been to the hospital for check up and his vaccination (Hepatitis A). He now weighs 5.4 Kgs :)… His birth weight was 3.5 Kgs.. His pediatrician Dr.Nalini Shenoy finds him cute and loves his eyes, she gives him a peck on his cheek every time we visit her. When I complained to her about him stretching a lot, she commented saying “Who asked him to drink so much milk? He is supposed to have gained around 600 to 700 grams and now he has gained almost 1200 more. Let him stretch!”

He doesn't look so chubby or heavy as he is pretty tall.The cutest thing about Aahlad is his eyes. He is so curious and always likes to stare at the light. I find everything cute about him. The other day Renjith was telling me about how lucky he feels to have such a beautiful baby. Unlike me my son is pretty strong. He cries only when he is hungry or if something is hurting him.
Yesterday was a bad day, during his evening sponge bath his anklet got stuck in his leg and it hurt him a lot. He cried a lot, my poor baby.  It took me a while to realize why he is crying and immediately took the anklets off... I felt so helpless till then.

Everyday Geeta ammai and Raju mama come to visit him in the morning, some days she gives him a bath and oil massage too. Yesterday, ammai made Kajal for him. Although I don’t like to put Kajal in his eyes, I let her apply it in his eyes. Must say he looks cuter with the mashi.

Tomorrow morning his dad is driving up to Trivandrum. He will be returning only after 3 days. Daddy is already feeling bad about staying away from his son for so long.

I still have a month of maternity leave left. I have to extend it till Jan end. I hope there won’t be any problem with my manager or HR. I can’t think of leaving my baby at some child care center or with someone. I don’t know what I am going to do from Feb onwards. Hope Renjith gets a long term onsite assignment soon, so that I can take a break from work and go onsite with him and the baby.

It's a BOY!!!

I am back again after a long gap.. for obvious reasons. We are blessed with a beautiful baby boy. He was born on 14th August at 1.17AM. He is more than a month old now I really wish we dint wait for 2 years after our marriage to have a baby. I am loving the motherhood phase. Renjith is so overwhelmed and happy too. We have named him Aahlad.

Hope this is not my last blog before delivery!

I’ve completed 36 weeks of pregnancy… which means that it could be any day now! I am not sure how I should feel about it.. It is little strange because although I am horrified about the thought of having a normal delivery I am also eagerly waiting to hold my baby. Wondering most of the time if it is a boy or a girl.. I hope the baby has Renjith’s features (He has a better nose than I). I keep imagining and playing scenes in my mind of how the new born would yawn, sleep, cry.. Smile in its sleep.. I can imagine how thrilled Renjith would be to hold his baby.. And how proud the grandparents would be.. I can picture all their faces and all these wonderful moments.. I wish someone would capture all these moments though.

My doctor seems to think that I can have the baby before 18th August, which is hardly 2 weeks from now. I also feel the same, coz I feel so breathless coz of my tummy now. I can hardly sleep.. Eat or walk.. Feel tired all the time.
I sometimes wish I could buy all the baby stuff ahead of the delivery.. Atleast I would have a choice in my baby’s clothes/needs.. Unfortunately in Hindu culture it is believed to be a bad omen to do so.
We still have not finalized on a name.. Have a few in mind.. Renjith was adamant about having “Unnithan” as the baby’s surname.. We have been having fights over this since long. :) Now, we have a pact, if it is a normal delivery then the baby will have its surname as “Nair” else it will be “Unnithan”. Weird pact was made so that I don’t have a painful normal delivery and also have my baby named as “Unnithan”. I also have a reason now to go for normal delivery. Hehehe

My dearest child, my little krishna..
You are the answer to all my prayers
I eagerly wait for you to play in my arms..

You are the star of my eye I will never make you cry..
I pray to god that you have a beautiful life to live
May you never feel lonely and cry.. come to me, my arms will always be open wide..

All my happiness and joy is associated with you,
I could love someone so much? I never had a clue..
I can feel you grow in my womb and a divine sense of joy fills me everytime you move.
Eagerly waiting for the day you arrive, you are the apple of my eye.

I dream of you, sing for you and live for you..
I will protect you from all the harm I can..
you have


May god always shower his love on you.
You will always be in my prayers my dear,
I am your mother and I will love you forever!

7th month function pics

As promised, I am uploading some pics here.. :)



Thats how I look now.. Week 31. :)



With mom and hubby!



With my 2 bhabis..



Hubby in traditional attire.. :)

Tere mere milan

One of my fav song!

Tere Mere Milan Ki Ye Raina
Naya Koi Gul Khilayegi
Tabhi To Chanchal Hain Tere Naina
Dekho Na
Dekho Na, Tere Mere Milan Ki Ye Raina

Nanha Sa Gul Khilega Angna
Sooni Bainyaan Sajegi Sajna
Jaise Khele Chanda Baadal Mein
Khelega Vo Tere Aanchal Mein
Chandaniya Gungunayegi
Tabhi To Chanchal Hain Tere Naina, Dekho Naa...

Tujhe Thaame Kai Haathon Se
Miloonga Madbhari Raaton Mein
Jagake Ansuni Si Dhadkan
Balamvaa Bhar Doongi Tera Man
Nayi Ada Se Satayegi
Tabhi To Chanchal Hain Tere Naina, Dekho Naa...

10 weeks left!

I can’t believe that I only have just 10 weeks to go.. OH God! It’s so exciting but its worrying at the same time. All these days all I could think of was the long maternity leave.. I was actually looking forward to getting away from work.. But now I really am starting to worry about what I am getting into. 

We have been thinking if or should we attend any childbirth classes. “What I don’t know can’t hurt me!”was my opinion all these days.. but don’t want to be proved wrong.

Our last scan was not very exciting. The doctor who was doing the scan was least bit interested in what she was doing. “This is the leg, this is the hand.. and this is the heart” was all she said while pointing to the monitor in a very annoying “I-am-the-boss” tone … My mom and hubby got to see the same too.. it was nothing more than a glimpse. Anyway..the Good news (or is it a bad news??) is that the baby is in Breech position.. In the breech position the baby enters the birth canal with the buttocks or feet first as opposed to the normal head first presentation. Well, the position might change.. but I was a little bit happy to know that my baby too wants me to go for a C-section. I have not been able to make up my mind about how I want to have the baby delivered 9c-section or normal). Many have asked me to go for normal delivery but no one has been able to tell me why it’s better than a C-section. I sure hope they have better reasons than “I had a normal delivery.. so should you”.

Next week, my in-laws and few other relatives from Kerala will be coming to Bangalore to attend my 7th month function. Mom has invited a lot of her friends too.

Mom wanted to get me a green saree for this function. Ended up buying 3 sarees in total.. Mom was in a spending spree.. and was even willing to get me a 12,000 worth saree just for this function. My wedding saree also dint cost me so much. Finally I went for a cotton-silk saree which costs 3500/- (much to my mom’s disappointment). The other 2 sarees well, they are for later use.. “wonder when ill get a chance to wear them”.

Will upload the function pics in my next post!

We are not supposed to be like this..

We ( me and hubby) have been fighting so frequently these days. Sometimes I wonder if it me or him who is pregnant.. I thought I should be the one who is always irked and snapping at everything because of the pregnancy hormones.. But I believe he has this problem more than me. I am so bored with these fights… I don’t understand whats wrong with him.. Why can’t he be just normal than behave like this.

I don’t feel like posting much when I am so upset.

Happy Vishu!

Happy Vishu to all my friends!

For the past three days, celebration (read, eating plenty of yummy food) has been in full swing in honor of Vishu, the harvest festival.

This year Vishu has been very special for me.. I had my mid trimester scan on the same day and to know that my baby is doing perfectly fine is a big big relief. Unfortunately I couldn’t see the baby in the ultrasound monitor.. I had to lie down and could only see the expressions on my hubby’s and doctor’s face. Hubby couldn’t stop smiling the whole day.. he was so excited to see the baby move. The baby had his legs stretched with one foot rested on the other.. That’s how hubby dearest always sleeps too! 

Both our parents were excited too.. I first called my mom as soon as I finished the scan and told her how long it took the doctor to finish the scan as champ was constantly moving.

My expected delivery date has pre-poned now… yaayyyy!! Champ is growing fast and now my EDD is August 25th.

My nephew Om, who is just 4 years old is so inquisitive about my growing belly. Every time he meets me.. The first question he asks me is “when is the baby coming out?” He is very sure that it is a baby girl. :) What’s more cute is the delicate way in which he touches my tummy.. as if it’s a balloon.

Last week was so funny… he was listening to a song in my mobile.. He loves playing with my mobile :) and all of a sudden he came to me and kept the mobile on top of my belly. It was so cute…

I have been trying to make him understand him that the baby can be a boy or a girl.. we cant be sure that it is a girl only.. But he refuses to accept that it could be a boy. :) I know he would love the baby lots be it a girl or boy! But a small part of me too wishes that I have a baby girl.. for no special reasons.. I just adore the cute dresses, clips, baby bangles and everything.. Its so much fun to dress up a girl than a boy! Hubby wishes it’s a girl too.. so does my mom.

Its so much fun to hear what people say.. most of my family members think it’s a girl.. some of them are so sure that it is a girl. Like my aunt, cousins and of course Omi. Only my in-laws think its going to be a baby boy! I would be happy as long my baby is healthy and I have a painless delivery (which is too much to ask for I know)

I am special!

I have reached half way through my pregnancy .. completed 20 weeks and I have 20 weeks more to go! I can feel champ move / kick in my tummy.. its not like how I had imagined to be.. It feels so different.. Its like the tingling feeling you get when you hold a small fish in your palm. Unfortunately hubby cant feel it.. its not so strong as of now so only I can feel it. Well there has to be some advantage of being a mother.. I guess this is one of them. Hehehee..

Last night was amazing.. I was listening to some music in my mobile and I when kept the mobile close to my tummy I could feel champ move.. I dint want to keep the mobile too close for too long as I dint harm the baby with any sort of radiation or noise.

The past few weeks have been really dull. So many emotions.. body pains.. uneasiness… arguments at work.. fights with hubby.. It was too much to handle and I burst into tears. I sometimes feel I really need some professional help.. a shrink or something. I cried in the shower, in the nights.. and whenever I was alone. I know my husband loves me but I really could use some help and support from him. I just want to feel special and wanted.. I don’t need any expensive gifts or anything.. but I wish he had at least got me some flowers for my birthday. I always thought people make you feel special when you are pregnant but nothing of that sort seems to be happening with me.. Birthday this year really sucked! I guess I just need to stop expecting from him.. and be happy for the sake of my baby. I try and keep myself busy whenever im bored or alone by painting so I don’t let such horrible thoughts enter my head. I don’t like it when I am like this! I have my baby to keep me smiling.. Nothing else should matter I guess. I dint want to write about all this here but there is nothing really interesting happening. Oh there is something to look forward to..I have my mid trimester scan on 15th of this month. Eagerly waiting for it!

Well my birthday would have been horrible if not for my cousins and uncles.It was very sweet of them to get me a birthday cake and gifts. My cousin in pune mailed me the baby scrap book. Long back when I had gone shopping with her I had mentioned that when I have a baby I would have a baby scrap book where I can note all the special things about the baby… his first picture, his first smile, everything about the baby infact. It was really so nice of her to remember that and send me the book so early. Love you chinnu!

We finally booked a car… Ford figo. White colour. I Love the colour white and my in-laws and hubby don’t consider white as colour. Whatever it is my car so I had to have a choice in the colour at least. I just hope to get the car before 21st of this month. Its mom’s birthday and I really hope she could be there when we get the car home.

I think Ill buy some flowers for myself today!

Love you baby!

Good and Bad!

Its been long since I have posted anything new here.. Lot of things happened the past two weeks.. Some good and some bad. So many things to write about.. To start with the good things:

1. I get to sleep more and more these days (All thanks to Techm).
2. We are going to book for a new car tomorrow. (something which has been in our mind since a long long time now)
3. I am just 22 weeks away to hold Champ in my arms. :) My baby is about 7.5 inches long now.
4. India beat Australia in the quarter finals. Yaayyyy!!

And for the bad things that happened the past few weeks.. Mom was not well. She is diabetic and we realized it too late. It had shot up to 510 and that is high enough for someone to go into coma.  Mom has BP and spondylitis so every time she felt tired or weak she kept thinking its high BP and would just take rest. I feel so guilty that I never thought of getting a blood test done for her. Good thing is it has reduced a lot now.. It has come to the normal level and she is no longer on insulin. I couldn’t bear to see her take those injections everyday. But her health keeps fluctuating. She has not been feeling well today. I wish she dint have to work so much. I just hope she stays healthy and happy always.

It’s been a while since I have seen my baby on ultrasound. Champ is supposed to be able to kick now, but unfortunately I haven’t started to feel anything. Gets me worried sometimes. My next scan is only on 20th of next month. I can’t wait so long to feel my baby inside me. I wish I could start to feel him/her kick very soon.

We are getting a new car for me! yaayyyyyy! Initially we deciced that we'll buy the
car after my delivery as once my tummy grows it will be difficult for me to drive the car. But without a vehicle it has been very difficult for me to commute to and from office. I take hubby's car these day and poor chap has to go in his bike to office. Renjith's office hours are very weird. He works in BT timing. So he has to ride the bike in the scorching summer afternoons. As it is, he has a dark complection and now it seems to get worse!

India is facing Pakistan in the semi finals. How interesting can it get! I bit all my nails watching the match yday between India and Australia. By the time my nails start to grow back it will be India playing against pakistan. I just hope I don’t bite my fingers away then. A little part of me tells me not to watch the match as I am not supposed to get too tensed or excited during pregnancy.. But how I can not watch this match tell me? Wishing Indian cricket team all the best!

On an ending note, my prayers to all the victims of earthquake and tsunami in Japan that happened few weeks back. I can only imagine how difficult it must be for all the survivors. I received a mail just few mins back and it is so inspiring to see how determined the Japanese are. Hats off to them! Posting the mail thread here.


Japan fixed cracked roads in 6 days, rest of the world drop jaws





The amazing things about Japan at times really made us respect them. The culture and the ethics of the Japanese are things worth learning. When the 8.9-magnitude earthquake hit Japan, their roads cracked, and cracked roads are stopping or slowing down transportation of food and supplies to critical areas hit by the tsunami. Therefore Nexco Japan, the company that is responsible to repair the affected roads and highway of Kanto area. It took the company mere six days to repair and reconstruct a terribly damaged Kanto Highway, and the picture says it all.

My doctor!

Me and Renjith, both love kids and we both never really thought about “planning” after we got married. But we dint want to have a kid till we both were settled (term which has no meaning now to me), so we figured we’ll wait for 1 year. I was the one who was more eager to have a baby soon after our first anniversary. I never wanted to plan for a baby and had always thought that it should not be planned and it should happen in its own way. It reminds of the episode in FRIENDS where Monica and Chandler try to have a baby and every time she ovulates and they have to rush to “DO IT”. I never wanted that to happen!

But after few disappointing months and negative home pregnancy tests (I would have had nearly 6-7 home tests done and all turned negative).. I started to get worried. That’s when we started taking advice from my cousin who is a gynecologist. Unfortunately she had to move to Australia so she asked me to contact her senior Dr. Jyotsna Madan.

The first time we visited Dr. Jyotsna, we both knew that she is the right doctor for us. She was so positive, composed and assuring that I knew I am at the right place. As she promised, I conceived within 3 cycles of “fertile super” (medicine similar to clomid).

When we broke the news to her, she was as excited as we both were and put me on some more tablets for the weeks to come to keep the baby safe. We broke to news to all family members on the same day. My mom as usual got so excited that she decided to call all her brothers and sisters right away. :)

Every time we go visit the doctor for our routine tests she talks to us so gently and enquires about my health and also about Soumya my cousin who is in Australia. Our doctor seems so surprised that we don’t have any questions at all. Once when we went there, she asked me if anyone in my family is diabetic and I flatly said “No”. Just after I left the hospital I realized that I was wrong as almost all of my uncles and aunts are diabetic. I had only thought about my mom and not the entire family and I was so wrong. My mom accompanied us in our next visit and we told Dr. Jyotsna that I had not considered everyone in my family while she asked me the question. She dint get angry or irritated, instead she told me “I was asking you about your family.. which means the entire family tree ma.” with a sweet smile on her face. I only managed to smile back looking so embarrassed and stupid at the same time. Just then mom added “She was only thinking of the shrub and not the family tree” and everyone else in the room were laughing including my husband and the assisting nurse. How embarrassing right!

Anyway I am 24 weeks away to hold Jr in my arms.. God! Time seems to just fly and the baby bump seems to get bigger and bigger. :)

Nagumomu!

I grew up listening to carnatic classical songs.. My mom, her 2 sisters, my uncle all have learnt carnatic singing. Every morning my uncle would play devotional songs in our tape recorder. We have a good collection of classical songs of M S subbalakshmi, Balamuralikrishna, Yesudas, Bombay sisters and many others.

I had learnt so many songs by heart just by listening to them everyday. Even now when ever I listen to any classical song in radio or TV and I stop and listen to it. I just love it. I wish I had continued my music classes.


My mom sings on auspicious days in our house. Although we are not Brahmins we celebrate almost all Hindu festivals with pujas, homas, bhajan (which is the best part) and of course “yummy feast”. You should come to my house during Ganesh chaturthi or Dusserah and you can see how we celebrate it. (we love to have guests drop by.. so u r always welcome)

During festivals, the house is crowded with all family members, relatives and few neighbours (sometimes). We all sit together and do bhajans and sing songs.

There are songs which all of sing together and there are some which only my mom can sing. She has a very powerful base voice like that of Shubha Mudgal so even if I am singing along nobody can hear me. My mom would intentionally stop in between so that my voice is heard and that’s when I get so embarrassed in front of all.

One of our distant relative was home during one of these occasions. She is a very strong woman. She and her husband were in military so u can imagine what I mean when I say she is a strong lady. She had lost her husband sometime back due to massive heart attack. She is lady of principles, highly mannered and a bit sophisticated. She asked if my mom knows the krithi “nagumomu” as she and her husband love that song a lot. She requested my mom to sing that song once for her. Mom sung it as graciously as ever and all of us were in a totally different world listening to the melodious song. It is a very beautiful carnatic krithi composed by Saint Thyagaraja in Telugu. Every singer has their own style, and I thoroughly enjoy individual interpretations of the same song. My mom has a different style of singing this song.

After she finished singing it, aunty had a big smile on her face and at the same times tears were flowing down her eyes. She was so emotional and couldn’t speak for a long time after that. She just wanted to remain silent. We have never seen her like that before and all of us were in a state of shock.

If you want to listen to this song and if you are not really into carnatic music then I would suggest you listen to the version sung by Sheela raman. They way she has interpreted Nagumomu in jazz is totally amazing. But you can only enjoy it if u can follow the meaning.

I am trying to look for the meaning in google as I am really bad at translating. I will surely add the lyrics and the meaning soon.

As promised.. Here is the lyrics and the meaning of the song:

nagumOmu ganalEni nAjAli telisi nanu brOvaga rAdA shrI raghuvara nI

nagarAjadhara nIdu paraivAra lella ogibOdhana jEsE vAralu gArE yiTu luNDudure

khagarAju nI yAnati vini vEga canalEdO gaganAni kilaku bahu dUrambaninAdO
jagamEle paramAtma evaritO moraliDudu vaga jUpaku tALanu nannElukOra tyAgarAjanuta nI

In translation:

O Rama! Supreme among Raghus! Missing your charming smile-lit face I languish here. Knowing my mental plight, cant you come and protect me?

O One who holds Govardhana hill! Members of your retinue who have the duty of reminding you of your daily engagements cannot fail in their duty.

Does not Garuda execute your commands expeditiously? Could he have excused himself saying that he was staying far from the earth in Vaikunta, your heavenly abode ? Exalted Lord! Ruler of the Universe! Whom else can I appeal to? Please shun disregard. I cant bear it. Take me into your fold.

Smile that changed me..

There is new house being constructed in the same road that I live in. The workers who build this house are living in this small shed close by. Everyday I have to pass by that house and I can see the small room that they all live in. I have always had this curiosity to know how any house would look from inside. If I am walking and if there is house that has its door open I would just take a look to see how it is.. Doesn’t matter if it is a small house or a big one. I’m no peeping tom though.. Anyway this small shed that I was talking about had just one room where they cooked and slept in.. A man, his wife and 2 kids lived there. The youngest one is a girl who would be around 3-4 year old. She is always playing in the mud or running with her elder brother. The first time I saw her I immediately looked away and I just couldn’t look at her after that. It was too painful to even look. Her left eye is completely white and big compared to the other. From that day onwards I would not even look at the kid and just look down and walk straight to my house.

After few days when I got to observe her family I noticed that she was loved by everyone in her house. Her brother who might be just 2-3 years elder to her loves to carry her all the time. Her mother daily brushes her hair, oils it and ties two pony tails while she is continuously talking to her mom. Sometimes her father carries her on his shoulder while she plays with his hair. They seem like a very content family who have no complains about life.

Few days back when I was walking back home from my office, I saw the girl playing outside and looking at my direction. I looked at her and somehow managed to smile as I dint know what else to do.. The big white eye seems to just look though me.. and just then she smiled back. She has a very beautiful big broad smile and it was the only thing that I could see. For the first time I thought of how cute she is and was immediately ashamed of myself for avoiding her all these days. I realized all kids are cute and are so beautiful and they don’t care what you think or feel.. You just have to look at a kid as a kid and you will see how cute and beautiful they are. Now I make sure I smile at her or wave at her when ever I see her.. And most of the times she smiles back or would just shy away and hide behind her mom’s saree. I pray to god that the kid has a good healthy life ahead!

Mondays are not boring anymore..

It is nice to read about the development of the baby every week. I have this application on my mobile which tells me what are the changes in my baby and me as I complete each week. It changes every Monday (that’s when I complete a week).. me and husband both eagerly wait to read it. We have reason to look forward to Mondays now! The application even shows a graphical picture of how the baby would look. It’s just too good. I love it!

I am in my 14th week now. My baby now has vocal chords and mutely cries. It may even start sucking its thumb. We both couldn’t stop smiling after reading this. All this growth and still my uterus is of the size of large grapefruit.

Last week I was so excited when I got the book “what to expect when you are expecting” from one of my sister in law. But my excitement soon mellowed down once I started to read it like a bible. They say.. too much information is sometimes dangerous. I totally understand what they mean by that. There was so much of information on different types of complications. It is not a very pleasant thing to read when you are pregnant That’s my opinion. Some people like to Google and read stuffs and know everything.. Knowing things to an extent is fine.. I mean its enough to just trust your doctor. She knows what’s good for you and what scans or medicines are required. My mom and all my aunts never even had an ultrasound scan when they were pregnant. She never even took folic acid pills or the calcium tablets for that matter and I turned out to be perfectly fine.

My mom always says “To have a baby itself is like a god’s gift.. And to have a healthy child is even more a blessing”.

Simple life!

There are just 2 people in my life that mean the world to me. One is my mom and the other is my husband. That makes my life very simple I guess. I have lots of uncles and aunts and cousins whom I love but I can never imagine a life without these 2 people. I hope god that I don’t live to see a day where I lose either one of them!

I can get very possessive at times. I never knew I’d love my husband so much that I can’t tolerate a single day without him. It’s been 4 days now since I’ve seen him and I feel so depressed. He is in Kerala for a week spending some time with his family. Maybe it’s the pregnancy hormones that are making me feel so dramatic. Gosh, I wish I could just snap out of this feeling.

Just 2 days back I sprained my leg.. In fact I don’t know if that’s what it is. I had this excruciating pain in my left knee as soon as I woke up on Saturday morning. I just couldn’t walk. I am very sensitive and cannot tolerate even small pain. Even if it’s a ant bite I’d react like a bee stung me. If a bee stung me.. I would react like it was a snake bite.. If a snake had to bite me.. I would have been dead even before it bit me. Yes I know you must be thinking… “How melodramatic”! I wonder how I’m going to even give birth to my baby! I don’t want to think about it now.. it gives me chills :)!

So what happened was, my leg hurt (I prefer to think it was a leg sprain actually)
so much that I was at home all weekend sitting or sleeping. I couldn’t go out spend sometime with friends or family. I don’t think I even stepped out of the door. I was so bored and missed my husband like mad! I must have bugged him so much that he is now annoyed with me. I know I was wrong in making him feel bad for my leg pain. I can be such a pain. I pity him! But I know he knows how I am and I am sure he’ll understand that I dint mean to be such a pain.

There is One good new though.. I have just completed first trimester ( first 3 months of pregnancy).. Into the 4th month now. It feels so great! I can tell the whole world now that I’m having a baby. They say the first 3 months are very crucial so we dint want to break the news to all friends about this till we finished the first three months. I broke the news to my friends already. I can never keep my mouth shut for long esp. if it’s a good news I keep bubbling with energy or keep smiling like I am on some kind of dope that the other person can easily figure it out.

Looking forward to my next scan which is just 9 days ahead. This is all I do these days.. “count days”. I still have 27 weeks and 6 days to go for “the day”.. which is 195 days. So cool na?

God bless my child!

Ma - I am proud of you!

I am planning to take my mom along for the next scan. She is also eager to see the baby. I wish I can be a good mother just like my mom. My parents got divorced when I was 3 yrs old.. and since then my mom has been everything to me. I have never felt any void or missed my dad in my life. I am very proud to be her daughter and I know she will be a wonderful grandmother too. I know how difficult it has been for her to bring me up all by herself. She is an advocate by profession. I remember my mom used to take me along with her to courts when I dint have school. I would sit and watch her work in her office.. Sometimes in the court. I never understood what was happening and would keep pestering my mom to take me home. Its only now that I realize how difficult it would have been for her to manage her work and also look after me without the support of anyone. My grandparents also passed away when I was 3 yrs old. She had to bring me up all by herself. We used to live in a small rented house and we were content with our lives. We would sleep early by 8 or 9 PM. Back then there was no TV or anything. We would eat together.. my mom would feed me most of the times.. She does that even now (sometimes) and we used to sleep together in our single bedroom house. We miss those days now actually. On weekends, I and mom would go out for walk and mostly window shop. I remember my mom once saying.. “When you grow up and have a job, then we will have a house of our own and buy these wonderful things to decorate our house.” Mom always wanted an own house. We were tired of shifting houses every few years. Lucky by gods grace and due to her hard work she was able to have her own house by 2001. Although it was very far from the city and we were new to that area, we were on cloud 9 to have our own home. Slowly we got a new car and I got a job soon after my engineering. We have beautiful home now and like my mom wished we got all the wonderful things to make our house look more beautiful. I am very proud of mom. There is still one thing remaining… I want to take my mom to some place abroad. I want to take her to UK. I want to show her London, Paris and Switzerland. I know she would love it. I’m hoping to do this very soon. :)

Im back again!

Hellooo friends.. I am here to bug you all againJ. I wanted to continue to blog since long time actually. In case you dint know I was blogging quiet regularly almost 4-5 years ago. My previous blog was mostly my random thoughts and consisted of my meaningless blabbering and it was aptly named “Clueless”. Lot has changed now.. and I would like to believe that ive grown up! But im sure ill mostly be blabbering my mind out here too. However this time I also have a reason to keep me hooked to the blog world. It is kinda sad that I am starting to blog when people have moved to twitter / facebook. But yes I am not the kinda person who wants the whole world to know what Im doing everyday. I wonder why people like to update their status on facebook or twitter so frequently. Ok.. I know my thought are drifting away.. so let me try me not to wander away from the point. So what I was saying is… This time I wanted to start writing again as I am in the family way.. Ill have my baby by end of August. (Yippee…!!!) J I am so so so happy to enter the new phase of my life.. “Motherhood”. Although it might sound very funny to you.. I feel the reason for my life was this.. I have always loved kids and I would love to have a kid. This has been the most wonderful feeling Ive experienced.. albeit the morning sickness and nausea. I have heard from my friends and sister in laws about the how they felt when they were pregnant. I used to love the glow pregnant women usually have. It really is a very spiritual moment in a woman’s life I believe.. The thought of having a life grow inside you itself is a very amazing feeling. I am lucky to be experiencing this.

I will be completing 3 months by this weekend. Just 2 days back I went for an ultrasound scan along with my husband and mother in law. She wanted to come along but was very apprehensive about asking her son to take her along. However my husband asked her the previous night if she wants to come with us for the doctor checkup and she immediately agreedJ. All three of us could see my baby in the small ultrasound monitor.. It was a wonderful feeling for all three of us. We all had a big Colgate smile on our face to see the baby swim and to see the heart beat. I remember my doctor commenting “ He/She is doing all kinda stokes, front stroke, back stroke and what not”. Both me and my husband don’t know to swim.. and it looks like my baby might be a good swimmer. I know I sound like an over expecting mother already… I hope I don’t turn into one.

Did you know the baby already starts to have finger nails by 3rd month?